When I was 16, and just coming to terms with my sexuality, I spent a lot of time looking at porn (as any healthy teenager would) – and whilst watching these videos, and seeing the way some of the guys reacted to taking a cock up the bum, I decided I definitely wanted to be the giver, rather than the receiver.Īnd then one day, just before I turned 18, I had been seeing someone for a few weeks, and they decided they wanted to ‘go all the way’. But it doesn’t have to be that way, at all.
Others see as it as the ultimate act of trust, love and closeness.For me, it was always something to be terrified of.
